It's not like I knew her or ever would've, even if she had survived. It would be very unlikely. I'm not the type of person she would ever be seen talking to. She may have been a kind soul, accepting of everyone as Christ implores his people to be, but I don't think there would be any chance for me to get close to her. Not as close as I can get by reading her thoughts and seeing pictures of her. I feel like I've known her my whole life. Maybe she watched over me like an angel?

This system has created a maladjusted society that it insists people conform to. This is not about big pharma doping up the mentally ill or any of that stupid shit. There are many opiates of the masses—religion, addiction, consumption. None of these are worse than the consumerist hedonism that has been perfected as of now. Microtransactions, gooner AI bots, gambling and betting on literally everything you can imagine... we all know where we're headed as a species.

The first system that people realize they're a part of is the school system. It works just how the rest of the world does, or that's what they tell you and are meant to demonstrate. Most schools are in some shithole where everyone sucks and you're all poor, maybe some kids aren't and you're lucky if you make friends with them. They're all underfunded now more than ever because your president had to give the Israelis more shit to militarize the Cartel with. Whether these are predominantly black, white, whatever the fuck—most kids at these schools aren't gonna be shit unless they bust ass or get lucky.

For those who are made to feel unwanted or inferior or maybe their homelife provides no forseeable escape from their torment, there are few options outside of suicide. Many come to the correct conclusion that if you are going to if you're gonna go, you may as well take a few people out with you.